Wednesday 29 December 2010

Happy New Year!!!!

2 days to go for 2011.. what an awesome year end celebration for malaysian people after won the AFF Suzuki Cup...proud to be Malaysian! and our PM has been declared dat 30th December will be public holiday! wooot wooot double happiness! hehe

Lots lots of thing happened through out the year..and now...countdown to new year..new Resolution need to be listed down... will be very busy with everything! cant wait! live life
to the fullest!!! yeah!


Whatever it is.. hopes that everything will flow smoothly throughout the year 2011! its meant a lot to me this new year! what an excellent beginning woot wooot triple happiness insyaAllah=). Dear Allah..permudahkanlah segala urusan kami..Amin


Happy New Year Everybody!

Tuesday 7 December 2010

some people are lucky..

i hate when thinking bout my future which is soo uncertain! at first when i was 19-20 years old i thought that i am ambitious.. everything look so promising.. with better education and life plan.. i know what i want and what i dont.. and sometimes i am one step ahead comparing to others but life isnt that easy..and kite merancang Tuhan yang menentukan.

I dont know why.. but now i feel a bit lost..lost way from my exact direction.. i even cant plan my life next to 6 Month..

when u reach to the age of 23... there is so much thing will comes around your mind..
need an establish career, how much salary you aim, when will u purchased your 1st house , how to earn extra income and so on... that makes me feel a bit down.. i cant even answer any one of that..

i lost that determination... hmm.. it makes me so stressful.. some people are lucky.. born with fortune, very good brain and got decent life.. but then i realized ... what ever i am now.. be Thankful and some people might put more effort than me that makes them deserve that life.. so dont blame yourself..i am trying to get back to my direction.. hopes everything goes fine..

Monday 22 November 2010

welcome back!

OmG! its freaking me! i gain weight! i have to do something.. waaaaaa!
introduction since a while i didnt update my blog! lame me! heehehe


how are you people? me? nothing much to story bout.. enough to explain why it takes ages for me to update this blog or may be because im happy with my life now? haha!

Anyway..just wanna wish Happy Birthday for those who celebrate their birthday today! it just remind us that were getting older yeah.. for whom born in a year 1987 now we are 23! its freaking me too! Every time when i go here and there.. All my friends will talk about getting marriage.. as always rite? what else could we chatting about other than this topic since we already reach up to this chapter of life. hoho! really excited talking about our Mr right Guy, what color that we wanna choose and how is our dream wedding.. My schedule also getting tight attending friend's wedding almost every weekend. that inspired me sometimes..but what worry me a lot is can i be a good wife to my future husband and good mother to my children. cuak? yes! heee anyway.. back to the story bout dream wedding.. I still wonder what color that suit me really well and what design should i choose for my wedding dress,how will my invitation cards looks like and many more. whatever it is i prefer my wedding ceremony to be simple and enjoyable..without hurting anyone and everyone are happy.that is my dream wedding..
How about u?


Monday 31 May 2010

air terjun~





















uishhhh...its been 3 years since my last visit to waterfall~ i ve been waiting so long to get this opportunity to go to waterfall ever since i went back to Malaysia..but only last weekend i got that chance together with my schoolmate reunion~ i am sooo excited to go for the reunion..


what a blast day! everyone had finished their study and now waiting for a job..some getting skinny and some getting chubby hmm me perhaps? hehehe and to make it complete thanks to cik pah with her slr or so called expensive camera which i cant remember the series that's make everything become near to perfect! actually dayah,piah and me arrived quite late.. as always hehe so we missed the bbq part..i am really sure it must be really fun to watch them fighting or i can say merepek while start the fire and bbq..what a miss..

then after had all the food which are really delicious! plus the pizza made by dayah...kudos to her..even i ve been working at pizza restaurant for one year..i still feel not really confident to make the pizza here at Malaysia.. now our stomach really full! it is the time to play in the water..but for me..after waiting for three years i can say i am not really feel the satisfaction..maybe because i cant feel the water fall down to my head hehe as the water getting deeper to waterfall and even for my height my foot cant step on the ground..so as precaution better not to play with danger..



i dont know how to describe how joyful it is..but i can show it to you by all the pictures i upload..anyway....seriously all the caption for the picture write by cikpah was really funny and that makes it perfect..as our relation getting closer..thank u too all and most thank you to the organizer! and i am sooo surprised with all the co operation and commitment gave by all the girls which some of them have seminar and paim actually just arrive from oz but still can manage to come to the event.. thank u for the souvenir from Oz! muuuahx

Wednesday 26 May 2010

photo



i knew!! there have something wrong with my blogspot.. my blogspot lack of photo which i could share with..urgghhh it looks so dull but the fact is i am so lazy to upload photo.. i dont like to wait for about half an hour or maybe less just to upload a few photo.but I really Love and want to share with you guys =( and too bad because Internet network at my place are really really slow like a turtle or maybe snail....and im the one who doesn't really like to spend most of my time in front of laptop unless skyping hehe




hmm maybe after i can afford to buy slr..then it would be an exception for me from be a soooo lazy girl which i am already hehe.


one another thing that i like and i wish to have..taking photo and that slr thingy.. i really appreciate nature as what they are.. and i really love to kept whatever view..captured from my eyes safely inside the photo..for me and other people to see..so that it can be as something to remember and a journey to share with..people always forgot and for me all the journey that we have been through is something that too valuable to forget..


just imagine when we look back all those photo..then we will start smiling,laughing and not a surprise if it also might make us cry..


you can see from the above picture the happiness and joyful. something that even i am not there..i can see how happy they are and this photo can be something that can be remembered if not me maybe someone among the people in that photo..for me we cant be selfish..sometimes we think any particular picture may not be important to us but don't forget there must be someone out there may think differently..

other example..ok let say i took a photo of Tugu Negara.for me maybe that photo is just a single photo..but how about the person who actually their grandfather or great grandfather or maybe their father who actually serve for the nation..surely something precious and honour for him rite?.do you get me? hehe i knew like berbelit2.as long as u get what I'm trying to say..it is more than satisfied for me..




actually that picture should be somewhere down here but i don't know how to re edit it back..hehe fyi..that is a photo of my office mate during bowling tournament. lucky me they put this photo somewhere in my email.so i can copy and paste. hehe


ok..that's all at the moment..i will get back another time..have a bless day!!!

Tuesday 25 May 2010

thank you

im starving! and my mind so load with everything but that everything...huhu just stuck safely in my mind without a feel to do something...urgh wake up mind..please dont waste any second..how i dream rite know i can be somewhere at the island..relaxing... seriously i really love travelling... but at the moment i need to work hard! really hard..otherwise i just can only dreaming..




hmm i dunno but i just feel like i wanna say something..

dear my Mr K..

i dunno about tomorrow or after..
but up to now..i am so thankful to have u in my life..
u always be there wherever and whenever i need you..
if not your physical..always be your support..
my pray to Allah..
hope for His blessing to this relation in this world and Hereafter..
it is kind very hard for me actually to write something very personal..
just wanna say Thank you to Mr K..
i really appreciate every single second with you..=)

Monday 17 May 2010

new baby!

yeay!!! my family and i already got new baby~
after 2 decade 3 years live on this big big world..i can see a lot lot of things change.. it seems like everything just happened yesterday..but to stand still on the earth is not that easy..i cant say i am proud enough but for me what i have now is more than enough..
sometimes when Allah decide to give u 'rezeki'.. everything that u think is impossible will be possible.. try practicing solat Dhuha and surah Alwaqiah..insyaAllah rezeki sentiasa ada dan tak putus..


ok get back to my main point..huhuh im very happy and wanna share with you bout our new baby.. even it is not a very expensive or exclusive car like estima benz or whatsoever.. for me it have its own sentimental value which im not looking in terms of material context,but it is about how i can see the excitement and happiness from my mom's face,how more less i can contribute from my salary to pay for this car..and also it just remind me bout our life back to the good old days...Alhamdulillah


hmm..what a beautiful lifecycle..which God creates for us..as His promised..I already miss to see my mom's excitement face..i wish i can have another chances to see it again but later..without using my mom's money at all~

Wednesday 28 April 2010

alone

i dont like to be alone..
neither the feeling of lonely..
it makes me sleepy..
my brain become slow..
i start talking with my ownself..
then start walking here and there..

i dont like to be alone..
neither the feeling of lonely..
it makes me feel..
that time ticking very slow..
but still leave me behind..
dreaming without nothing to do..

i dont like to be alone..
neither the feeling of lonely..
it makes everything become soundless and plain..
all the colours of life just fade away..
without beautiful sound of happiness and sadness..

i dont like to be alone..
neither the feeling of lonely..
it makes me feel..
like im acting alone..
without any co actor/ress..
in a movie of my life...

Thursday 8 April 2010

+ve and -ve


Today i already sent my 1 week notice of resignation to my boss...it is kind a very hard and difficult to make this decision..but i just followed the flow since i already pray to God to guide and show me which path is better...i actually dont really have much problem working at my current workplace..with good environment, very establish profile company, and also with all the luxury car surround me..and also plus bonus twice a year plus annually staff dinner pluss annually company's trip .I am so jealous because dont have opportunity to join this company's trip..as what they told me this year they went to bandung and last 2 years they had a cruise trip!!!!!! and also this end of april they have karaeoke for all staff!!!


seriously it such a previlage to work there...but what can i do..after do all the pros and cons..i think better to accept this offer...let me list down why i think it would be better for me to accept the offer:

1.they offer me higher salary

2.no parking fees which usualy will cost me ,RM100-150 per month

3.the office is located at shah alam so i can cut down my petrol usage and toll!!

4.very near to my home so no need for me to worry about traffic jam and also save my time on the road

5.at the moment i dont know how establish this company are but they are one of TM platinum business partner..so for me..it is enough to assume this company is an establish company.. before looking further details bout their profile..


plus bonus:


1.the office looks very nice,neat and seriously very cozy with gewd taste of interior decoration..

2.give me better opportunities to enhance my knowledge and also gewd for my career.

3.it is situated in very nice bulding..i knew it seems irrelevant but for me it is relevant!

people tend to judge things based on what they saw so for me it is important to give gewd impression...

4.i assume it has a gewd working environment and plus with good reference since my senior at UITM with 3 years experience working at Earnts & Young and also an Acca qualified is working there



hmm hopefully it would be a gewd decision..i am really scared in case it turns to be wrong..but i need to move foward and never look back..no time to regret..and i also hope i can stay there more than a year.. to give a gewd review on my CV ...

do pray for me yeah!!

note: thanks to my mr K cause be my part time editor..=p

Saturday 3 April 2010

dissapointed? yes...

what do you feel...when u really really waiting for something then it just turn out to make you dissapointed.. for me..i wont feel regret..but it hurts..really hurts..hmm sometimes things can be so complicated..beyond my power..beyond of everything..i think i need to understand more about all this thing..hmm...

Friday 2 April 2010

happy =)

huhuhuhu! im happy today! i dunno why..but eventhough it is quite a very tough day in the morning...but then it just welll and fine after that...do you know why i love accounting? i love accounting because i love numbers! and i have one ambition..i hope i can be one of director for public listed company..i know i can do it babe!!! i just love corporate sector! making all the strategic planning and decision..i know it is not that easy for me to achieve till that stage..but still it is not impossible.. i will try my best to do whatever it takes to fulfill my dreams..of course with ethical manners..i cant tell you people how lovely and enjoyable it is when u put an effort on something or looking for a solution to solve a puzzle then after few time u did it!! u know what im saying ryte? the feel of satisfaction and victory..

today i made one theory..people always make reasons in everything...whether u realise or not...there always lies a reason behind..but i dont feel like to elaborate it any futher coz im bit tired today...so gewdnite...n thank you to all of you coz be so supportive by reading my blogs..

till then..have a sweetdream peoples!

Tuesday 30 March 2010

aarrrrrrghhhhhh!!

arrrrghhh..i hate this feeling....please go way...please...
i hate it.. i hate it............
please please please...

toll+ membebel


oryte..hmmm yesterday while i was driving back to home ..about 200-300 meter before reach at federal highway toll counter..i can see 2 lane for tounch and go users..1 lane is shorter than 2nd lane..when my car getting nearer i need to choose either the 1st or 2nd lane...within that short period of time.. i decided to line up at the 1st lane.. i was thinking it is more quicker than the other but it appears to be the lane that i choose was stuck and not moving. it takes few minute before it start moving back. while the other lane..was moving faster and the car which was next to me at the other lane already pass the toll counter..while waiting for my turn....something came up in my mind..it was about decision making...

somehow when i decided to choose the 1st lane..which i thought it will be quicker actualy doesnt seem like what i expected...same goes when making decision in the real life...sometimes all the decision me made gave us high impact and big consequences..we always put certain level of hopes and expecting it goes like what we expected..but sometimes it just turn out to be an adverse results..

I am the eldest in my family and since i was 13..i went to boarding school..so i am more independent and my mom always give me a freedom to make my own decision..
managing my own money..field of study that i want to continue after spm..and many more...and since my dad sick..as the eldest i also took part in making decision together with my mom about everything in the house..including my sister'education planning and other else..there is a big responsible on my shoulder and i admit sometimes decision i made turn to be wrong...then i need to deal with the outcome of the wrong decision..

hmm..there is plenty of option that we can choose..and we as a human tend to make decision based on physical judgement..what i mean is what eyes can see...then we hope it will goes better somehow or other.. but then suddenly it appears to be an adverse results.. and impact of this adverse results..some people will suffer...some will regret...some will deal with it and take as a life lesson..some will keep blaming others and some will take it as a responsible..its all up to you...which way u want to choose to deal with..we are not perfect..and never be perfect..so we cant hiding from the fact that we always make mistake.. it just a matter of how we deal with the outcome of the decision we made

hehehe...sorry i knew it sounds so serious...just need something to write about..and as for reminder..for me and for you=)

peace no war!!!

Sunday 28 March 2010

to Tuk Din

hehe..im sorry Tuk din because of the late update... I knew i didnt update my blog quite a long time...It takes some times for me to adapt with my new life...hehe anyway..dont give up visiting my blog okay..i heard that your business now going very well..congratulations from malaysia for your achievement!! gewd gewd.. im proud to be ur ex staff! hehe anyway i missed you and all Tuk Din's Restaurant members...please convey my regards to all of them..

attention to everyone who might be reading this post..do come to Tuk Din's Restaurant if you visiting London..you can find a variety of Malaysian authentic foods which are very scrumptious and mouth watering!!!! it just near to paddington station!

psst psst: i heard now ure in a progression of training new people in your restaurant..please keep your eye on and make sure mr K not gatal2 ek huhu for me... please be on my side Tuk Din!!!! huhu

with love:
esma=)

Friday 26 March 2010

life route~

we are not angle..we are human..people can change..hmm how far this statement are true...depends on human itself..sometimes u tink u already meet the chosen one..but 1 or 2 years later everthing change..i always think this thing happened just to be as a reason ..to complete ur life route which already written towards the end..

u cant go through ur life and simply get whatever you want. otherwise u will never learnt..eventhough i admit that accepting the truth is sometimes can be really hurt..but that is what we call qada' and qadar..finally after all the hardest thing u went through..
u will smile..thankful with what u get and what u have although not all people are lucky as you..but maybe later their time will come..maybe here or hereafter..

we always hope our life will be filled up with happiness,successful,posperity and love..what else could be asked for..it is more than enough..but then after God grant us with all this 4 in package..then we still asked for more..

sometimes without we realise..we already get what other people will dying to get for it.. then we still keep praying to get better more and forget to say Alhamdulillah..

and sometimes to get what we want..just to make ourself happy,satisfied,cheer up,succesful,rich and so on ...other people have to sacrifice...either we realise or not..it is a matter of appreciation..it happened to all of us..

actually i dont know what is my point actualy..just something to muse on..for me and for all of you..without pointing to anyone...

im sorry while i am walking along my life route...i have done something wrong with all of you people...im sorry while crawling to acheive my needs ..i hurt you people...thank you coz helping me crawling..running...walking towards my life route...thank you...thank you to all of you people...

Thursday 25 March 2010

phone call~

i never really wait for a phone call till yesterday...for about an hour..waiting for this phone call makes me really feel uncomfortable to do anything..i just stared at my phone anxiously..this phone call can really change everything..





2pm: yes!! my break time...i planned to go to the bank to put a sum of money in my ASB account but i need to take out the money from my mom's bank account 1st.after that i went to the officer incharged and asked for waiting number..'bang nak number..nak masuk duit asb'...and then that brother said to me..why dont you do fixed deposit every month by this programme promotion by ASB & maybank venture? it is really worthwhile dik...why dont you sit there and let me explain briefly about this programme to you..





i kind of interested with it and since it doesnt cost me money for listening..so i just followed him to his table..then the explanation went on..15 minute went by..after throughly explaination ,question and answer..then the officer asked me..so sis..how is it? do you interested?





As a accounting student..obviously i need to apply all the knowledge that i have learnt about this investment and interest thingy bla bla to ensure my investment is worthwhile or not..


so..bring with this so called profesional behaviour i answered to him..oryte..let me think 1st..anything i will give you a call..and oh sir..can i have another number waiting please..





2.30..oryte everything settle already..now its time for me to rethinking about the investment and also time for me to calculate my cash flow in and out..





3.00..after deeply calculating all the numbers and figures with bunch of mini statement and receipts..suddenly i remember something...oh my god where i put my mom's atm card?


i quickly open my bag and throw everthings out and search every compartment i have.. look for this atm card...its missing!! what i should do now?..im dead..my mom surely will get upset with me..

without taking a lot of time..i asked my manager's permission to go back to the bank..2 possibility in my mind..

one.. i forgot to take my card from ATM cardmachine or second..while listening to the officer about that investment thingy..it just slip somewhere..oh my God..why on earth i should listen to the officer bout that investment thingy if i know that i dont have any intention to invest it..



unfortunately it wasnt there...so dissapointed...i went to the counter and asked for the helpline number.so that i can close the card from any transaction...



4pm.. after gave all the information needed..now the bank already close the card..i really felt anxious in case all the moneys gone...IT IS MY MOM'S MONEY NOT MINE!!

oryte..now second thing to do..with hope that my mom is in a good mood..i called her and asked her to make a card replacement..obviously i cant do anything since that is not my card...otherwise i will definitely replace the card on my own so that my mom will not aware that her card is missing hehe..oh my God seriously cant wait till tommorow to find out whether the money is still there or gone astray....

mom..please call me back after you settle everything yeah..please please..i am really worry...

'taupon..clumsy sangt..ish ema nih' mum replied..



15minute...no phone called...30 minute...still not ringing..i cant be patient anymore...i called my mum..and ask her how is it...she said that she's still waiting for her turn...hmm okey mum..please call me back yeah...



now...after almost an hour waiting..with doa without missed from my mouth..finally..phone ringing....

'Ema..oryte...dont worry..the money is still there' Alhamdulillah!!!! waa!! syukur nikmat!!!!! Amin!!! ..



u will think that i am so clumsy rite? huhu okey..moral of the story...dont think anything else when u are in the bank..

Tuesday 23 March 2010

BAD DAY??

Do you think that u can foresee your day up to the end of day whether it will turn to be a gewd or not??

for me its all up on how you start your day early in the morning..usually when it happens that u have a miserable morning..it will drag along to whole of ur day..it happened to me sometimes..

let me give u an examples




sometimes i woke up late and became so selekeh,so sleepy and lazy to go to work..usually i will start my way to damansara at 7.45 morning and will arive 15 or 30minute to 9am..just nice..but when it appears to be that day is my bad day..there will be a very heavy traffic jam..or sometimes all the way of my journey people keep honking at me whether because the driver just being rude and have no manners or maybe because of my own fault hehe ..
then after i arrived at my office.. out of nowhere..loads loads of work to do waiting for me..and comes in package..my account become imbalance or there is some figure i missed to calculate and i have to search all over again... and again on my way back to home i stuck in the middle of extraordinary traffic jam..so it appears to be my bad day..


but today happend to be that i woke up early but my mom woke up late..so as a considerable and responsible daughter..i helped my mom ironing her baju kurung.anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY mummy!! may have a gewd and bless one huhu

it just a fine morning..but i am so damn sleepy..my eyes feel very heavy even to blink.but i need to stay focus on the road.it is so dangerous..i just think that i want to arrive quickly so that i can sleep for a while..after 40 minute journey..i arrived at my workplace and troy to find a place to park my car..found one! now i already park my car...just need to adjust a little bit...i looked from my rear mirror there is proton iswara behind..i was about to reverse my car and at the same time be aware to watch my distance from proton iswara..suddenly..DUM!! i accidently collide with something..i was so shock and shivers. i really sure that car is still far behind.. the only things came on my mind that time was how much that i need to pay to compensate for a broken car..

then i went out from my car and looked behind..hmmm as a matter of fact..my car collide with MPPJ parking meter.. it hit my rear side of car 'kemek and lampu pecah' .i cant really see the parking meter though..maybe because it is in blind spot areas..



i checked the meter in case it broken down or something..'karang kene saman ngn MPPJ satu hal plak'..nothing happened Alhamdulillah..just need to clean up any evidence that i might left behind..thank to CSI coz teach me more less knowledge about that evidence thingy..


Hmm what if..it happened to be that the MPPJ meter broke down and all the coin scatter all over..huhu what i should do with that coin huh?..let it be just a question without an answer..that is how i start my day today..hopefully it just end there without drag to end of day...thankfully that accident doesnt involve with anyone's car..Alhamdulliah..



whatever it is...start your morning with doa and always think positive=)

semangat!!

ok now im more excited to writesomething in my blog after do a make over !
really dunt have things to do at my workplace..uhuk...
oryte..just wait and see...

Tuesday 16 March 2010

10 ways...

this is 10 ways how to improve yourself to be a better person based on my point of view:



1.you must improve you english speaking and writing if you plan to become ceo or top level of management
2.complete your whatever higher qualification other than degree
3.always read newspaper in job recruitment advertisement so that u can get a clear view about current market requirement exspecially from big company
4.try to learn more then 2 language
5.well prepare during your interview
6.learn from other people,aware of surrounding and think wisely
7.apply whatever knowledge that you have learnt in your real life
8.always think positive and be patient
9.be creative how to improve yourself dont just wait for something drop down from the sky
10.pray..thankful and ikhlas in whatever you do..exspecially your work..


lets together trying to improve ourself to be a better person!! chaiyoo!

Friday 12 March 2010

boring~

ok i just realize that i have only 2 post including this one in 2010 up to march..and..i can describe my self as a boring girl after i realise that i like to use a word LIFE almost everypost i wrote!!..so sastera! oh my god..cant accept the fact that i am so typical and so sastera..and now i get myself into dis unethically behaviour writing blog in the middle of working period!!!
so cannot be accepted~ jbncjksnibfin cisbfibvwifnakbnahdoncisbhfuise

Thursday 11 March 2010

Its march

its march already!!! I'm sorry blog spot cause put u in a place of ignorance.. hmm i cant say that I'm too busy..but too tired to spend time writing and thinking can be accepted.. i just start working in accounting field..sometimes it quite enjoyable but sometimes a bit bored when u have to key in all the data n spend most of your time in front of computer.

hmm for me working and studying are 2 different life..totally different..
when u enter a working life..u have to be prepared mentally and physically exspecially 2-3 weeks from the 1st day u start working.. the stage that u need to push yourself mingle with ur workmate, cope with traffic jam and force yourself to wake up in the morning everyday.

I'm the one who is very hard to get along with new friends..even though all my friends said that i am very talkative it takes me a while to mix with new people and surrounding.i dunno why but for me it is very hard to start a conversation with new friends. really feel awkward but don't worry it only takes a few days hehe after that u just hoping that i can shut my mouth for sometimes..hehe so the conclusion is just be prepared and show the best of yourself to get gewd impression. like myself..1st impression from my workmate is I am very serious hehe too bad huh?

secondly, the major different between study and working life are relationship between u and ur friends..it is quite difficult to bring ur relation with ur workmate to the next level we called friendship.. everyone have their own life with different range of age,most of them already married and some of them have their own circle of friends. people tend to be more serious..what a boring life..hehe but certain cases it might be difference..

and final point..try not to be a subject or topic of gosip among ur workmate.because its better for u to make friends rather than enemy.story spread very easy.so try to create good environment and live ur life happily without tenses..