if you...

if you feel sleepy..go to bed
if you hungry..look something in ur kitchen for food
if you bored..have something to do..play game perhaps
if you get sick..eat tablets
if you dont have money..go to work

but..what if...

if you sad..
if you happy..
if you feel down..
if u miss someone..
if u feel love..
if u feel upset..
if u feel giving up..
if you feel lonely..

huhu question will always comes with answer
but not all question have the exact solution..
ure the one who raise up that question
so u will be the one who find the solutions..
after all the things happens
n there still no way to solve ur question..
only 1 answer will be the best solution..
God=)

bye bye

hmm dis week is a very2 long n busy...hmm busy of entertaining frenz who will going back to malaysia..
busy of rememories back all memories that we have been together..
busy to pretend that everything was ok...
n busy to think..how can i live here in london without them as they are as part of my family...
my life would be empty without them...thank u cz being a very2 gewd frenz to me...

hmm..a year has gone..n it leave me with a lot of memories..
n it is very2 difficult for me to let them go..but life must go on..
they leave me with trillion gewd deeds that they have done to me...
only i can do is..by praying to God..for His blessing..to kak sally,abg mat n arip..

i never thought that they will be as part of my journey life here in london...n i never thought that we can be so close like now..n it such a previlage for me cz God has grant me this opportunity of knowing them...it such a beautiful memories..
they alweys by my side when i was so down..n they alweys laugh with me when i was so happy...hmm they are everythings..

infact..arep alweys give me advice when i really need it n he teach me how to play pool n now i cant wait to play pool again hehehe..kak sally n abg mat cook for me when i feel like i want to eat any malaysian foods..apam balik..mee bandung..kuih raye...cheese cake..n sometymes habiskan mase tgk tv till late nyte..cz i dunt have tv in my house n lg malang cz watching tv is part of my hobbies..i really love tv!

hmm im so sorry cz i cant give or do something in return..
im so sorry if i have done something that hurting u..
n thank u so so so much cz being such a gewd frenz to me..

bye bye...
hope they will have a great live there in mlysia..

budget....

hmm let me think first..how much do i have now in my pocket..
100 pound
with my boss..
137.50
in my account..
60
all together...297.50
okey..done..
things need to pay..
1. 1 week house rental.........................................................40
2. 2 weeks deposit................................................................90 since im about to move out
3. 2 weeks house rental for new house..............................90
total:220

hmm237.50-220=17.50..utk hidup n 60 pound simpan..emergency case

target:
600 school fees
200+50+140+400=790
total:1390 pound

hmmm cmne ek nk buat..to earn 1400 in a month times?

answers=selain keje...i hav no idea....

kisah....

tension...
is not easy to satisfied people..
n in fact..it so hard...
n owh gosh...
sometymes i keep thinking wut is my flaws..
i dun want to be so useless as a friend..
ntah la..
it so complicated
everyone have their own attitude..
n it is the matter of how far u can cope with different attitude from different people..
n how long it will takes until u give up
then u make up ur mind n tink it is better to step out n follow ur own way..
but..
friends are everythings...
n i alweys keep in my mind...wutever i do..remember..there alweys be a heart to be care....
but sampai bile kene jd tak kisah....
its hurting me...
hmmm O Allah..please forgive me for all my wrongdoing...

the gewd old days..

huhu today is a very tiring day..seems like i went somewhere far2 away..but literally is..i just walking around here n there,south to east searching for house for rent for my frens yg baru sampai sini..sian..i knew how it feel kalo dah dekat sebulan n u still tak settle2 down lg..n maybe because walking around in london is not as part of my hobby nowdays..it is freezing outside...urghhh cant stand it for even 5 minute outside..cam pelik gak..compare tuh last year..seems like this year is extra2 cold..i tink because of lapisan ozon semakin menipis nih n snow pon macam malu2 nak kuar...hmmmm..nothing will last forever...n it such a frustrated cz non of any house can be viewed today..so finally we decide to go to new shopping mall here.. to recover back our energy n tension sebab tak dapat tgk umah huhu beso tau mcm OU..tp tula...i tink malaysia nih setanding je ngn london nih..n im proud to be malaysian!!! frankly speaking..here..among others foreign country..malaysia is very well known n ramai yg pnah pg malaysia n have gewd tyme there..because of the wheather n shopping mall die..compare to london..except for oxford street nih..nothing to be proud of..sebab this new shopping mall die wat ala2 ou..n diorg nih mmg tak bnyak shooping mall yg berbumbung..so kire malaysia nih hebat laa maju due tige langkah hahahaha

i bought one adidas sport shoes for my beloved sister huhu sleek series tau 20 pound je...so pejam seblah mate..n beli je...sian ajat..nak sngt die..sport shoes..huhu n pastuh balik umah...pastuh kuar balik g tesco hahaha make a world record tau cz dok usung mineral water 12 botol tau dr tesco ker umah naik bus turun bus 3 org huhu letey nyeeeee...full stop..flat huhu..



hmm...the gewd old days...i miss my family damn much..i miss mak tok..i miss tok bak...i miss my uncle n my aunties..

i just read one of my kazen's blogs about family days...i wish i can be there..sedey=(

nampak mcm seronok gile!!!! wawawa tgk diorg nye gambar..bergenang air mate...mesti enjoy gile...jeles10000x



n its remind me about tok bak..tok bak..now im here at london!!! tok bak..tankiu cz bg support n put ur trust on me while im so down because tak dapat masuk asrama penoh..

tok bak la org yg pertame akan call tnyr result cucu die..kalo result spm,upsr n pmr kuar..

tok bak la yg akan marah n gembire kalo cucu2 die bgtau result..

aku ingt lg..tok bak ade pesan..mase aku tgh down sngt..tak dapat masuk asrama..
ema..tok bak tau ema bole buat n ema pandai...tak semestinye ema tak dapat masuk sekolah asrama penoh ema tak bole berjaye...ramai org bole pg oversea..even tak dapat masuk asrama..

tok bak..i still keep ur advice till now..

n now here i am..u give me strength n every moment with u seems like it just happens yesterday..

hmm im so glad..because im with u till your last breath..

makan ngn tokbak..cakap ngn tok bak..mandikan tok bak..everything...n ema ingt lagi...malam terakhir.. while u still in coma..im glad..cz i spend all nyte with u n talking with u..even tau tok bak tak leh jawap..but i knew..u can hear every single word i say... by ur tears....

tokbak...ure my hero...i miss u so much..semoga tokbak sentiase berade dalam rahmat Allah s.w.t..

secebis jawapan utk satu persoalan..

(dipetik dari utusan Malaysia 14/1/09)

SEJAK 18 hari ini seluruh dunia meratap gara-gara kezaliman Israel. Tentera Zionis terus-menerus mengebom, mengganyang rakyat Palestin. Israel, nampaknya terlalu berkuasa.

Saya tidak 'berkuasa' lagi untuk mengulas panjang mengenai peperangan sebelah pihak itu. Tapi saya ingin berkongsi dengan pembaca sekelian, siapa sebenarnya Yahudi ini dan mengapa mereka terlalu berkuasa.

Kita harus kaji secara akademik, ilmiah untuk mengetahui siapa mereka ini.

Saya amat tertarik dengan tulisan seorang penulis bebas, yang juga Pengarah Eksekutif Pusat Penyelidikan dan Kajian Keselamatan (CRSS) Pakistan, Dr. Farrukh Saleem (rujuk http://www.masada2000.org/Powerful-Jews.html) mengenai soal tersebut. Jadikanlah tulisan itu sebagai tatapan dan renungan kita semua - ke mana kita dan ke mana umat Islam harus pergi selepas ini. Dan, siapa yang harus disalahkan? (Nota: Sedikit sebanyak ia juga akan menjawab surat-surat dan SMS yang dihantar untuk ruangan Forum, Utusan Malaysia yang meminta ditonjolkan apakah produk di belakangnya Yahudi).

Begini tulisan beliau:

Hanya ada 14 juta Yahudi di muka bumi ini; tujuh juta di Amerika, lima juta di Asia, dua juta di Eropah dan 100,000 di Afrika. Bagi setiap orang Yahudi ada 100 orang Muslim (1:100). Namun, jika dicampur semua sekali, Yahudi lebih 100 kali berkuasa daripada orang Islam. Mengapa ini berlaku?

Siapa mereka ini?

Nabi Isa (Jesus of Nazareth) ialah Yahudi. Albert Einstein, saintis zaman moden paling terkemuka dan disebut oleh majalah Time sebagai 'Manusia Abad ini' ialah seorang Yahudi; Sigmund Freud - melalui teori id, ego dan super-ego ialah bapa psikoanalisis, juga seorang Yahudi; begitu juga Karl Marx, Paul Samuelson dan Milton Friedman.

Selain mereka banyak lagi orang Yahudi yang hasil kebijaksanaan mereka berupaya menghasilkan keperluan untuk kita semua: Benjamin Rubin memperkenalkan jarum suntikan pelalian.

Johas Salk mereka vaksin polio yang pertama. Gertrude Elion mencipta ubat melawan leukemia. Baruch Blumberg mencipta vaksin Hepatitis B. Paul Ehrlich menemukan rawatan untuk siflis. Elie Metchnikoff menang Hadiah Nobel untuk penyakit berjangkit. Bernard Katz menang Hadiah Nobel kerana kajian mengenai transmisi neuromuskular.

Andrew Schally penerima Nobel dalam kajian endokrinologi (berkaitan sistem endokrin dan kencing manis). Aaron Beck menemui terapi kognitif (rawatan mental, kesugulan dan fobia).

Gregory Pincus membangunkan pil perancang keluarga yang pertama. George Wald menang Nobel bagi kajian mata manusia, Standley Cohen dianugerahi Hadiah Nobel dalam kajian embriologi (kajian janin dan perkembangannya). Willem Kolff mencipta mesin dialisis (mencuci) buah pinggang.

Sejak 105 tahun, 14 juta Yahudi menang 15 dozen Hadiah Nobel, sementara tiga dimenangi oleh 1.4 bilion umat Islam.

Stanley Mezor mencipta mikrocip pertama. Leo Szilards membangunkan reaktor rangkaian nuklear pertama; Peter Schultz (kabel gentian optik); Charles Adler (lampu isyarat); Benno Strauss (besi tahan karat - stainless steel); Isador Kisee (sistem suara di pawagam); Emile Berliner (mikrofon untuk telefon) dan Charles Ginsburg (alat pita rakaman).

Saudagar jenama terkaya dunia juga dikuasai Yahudi iaitu Ralph Lauren (Polo), Levis Strauss (Levi's Jeans), Howard Schultz (Starbuck's), Sergey Brin (Google), Michael Dell (Dell Computers), Larry Ellison (Oracle), Donna Karan (DKNY), Irv Robbins (Baskin & Robbins) dan Bill Rossenberg (Dunkin Donuts).

Richard Levin, presiden universiti tersohor Yale Universiti ialah seorang Yahudi. Henry Kissinger, Joseph Lieberman dan Madeleine Albright (bekas-bekas Setiausaha Negara AS); Alan Greenspan (bekas pengerusi Rizab Persekutuan AS di bawah Reagan, Bush, Clinton dan Bush); Maxim Litvinov (bekas Menteri Luar Soviet Union); David Marshal (bekas Ketua Menteri pertama Singapura); Isaac Isaacs (bekas Gabenor Jeneral Australia); Benjamin Disraeli (negarawan dan penulis Britian); Yevgeny Primkov (bekas Perdana Menteri Rusia dan bekas jeneral KGB); Jorge Sampaio (bekas Presiden Portugal); Herb Gray (bekas Timbalan Perdana Menteri Kanada); Pierre Mendes (Perdana Menteri ke-143 Perancis); Michael Howard (bekas Setiausaha Negara British); Bruno Kreisky (bekas Canselor Austria) dan Robert Rubin (bekas Setiausaha Perbendaharaan AS).

Dalam dunia media, orang Yahudi yang terkemuka ialah Wolf Blitzer (CNN); Barbara Walters (ABC News); Eugene Meyer (Washington Post); Henry Grunwald (Ketua Editor Time); Katherine Graham (penerbit The Washington Post); Joseph Lelyyeld (Editor Eksekutif, The New York Times) dan Max Frankel (The New York Times).

Dermawan dan penyangak mata wang, George Soros ialah Yahudi. Dia menderma AS$4 bilion untuk membantu ahli sains dan universiti serata dunia.

Walter Annenberg menderma untuk membina ratusan perpustakaan berjumlah AS$2 bilion.

Di Olimpik, Mark Spitz membolot tujuh pingat emas. Lenny Krayzelburg ialah pemegang tiga kali pingat emas Olimpik. Spitz Krayzelburg dan Boris Becker adalah Yahudi.

Tahukah anda bahawa pelakon pujaan Harrison Ford, George Burns, Tony Curtis, Charles Bronson, Sandra Bullock, Billy Cystal, Woody Allen, Paul Newman, Peter Sellers, Dustin Hoffman, Michael Douglas, Ben Kingsley, Kirk Douglas, Willian Shatner, Jerry Lewis dan Peter Falk semuanya Yahudi?

Tambahan lagi, Hollywood sendiri diwujudkan oleh orang Yahudi. Antara pengarah dan penerbit, Steven Spielberg, Mel Brooks, Oliver Stone, Aaron Spelling (Beverly Hills 90210), Neil Simon (The Odd Couple), Andrew Vaina (Rambo 1- 2-3), Michael Man (Starsky and Hutch), Milos Forman (One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest), Douglas Fairbanks (The Thief Of Baghdad) and Ivan Reitman (Ghostbusters) - semuanya adalah Yahudi.

Mempengaruhi

Washington yang merupakan ibu negara Amerika Syarikat, mempunyai satu pertubuhan lobi yang amat berkuasa. Ia dikenali sebagai Jawatankuasa Hal Ehwal Awam Amerika Israel (AIPAC) yang berupaya mempengaruhi Kongres meluluskan resolusi memuji dan 'membuat apa saja' demi Israel.

Tahukah lagi bahawa William James Sidis dengan IQ 250-300 ialah manusia tercerdik. Dia ialah Yahudi.

Jadi, mengapa mereka ini terlalu berkuasa?

Jawapannya: Pendidikan, pelajaran, ilmu.

Mengapa umat Islam terlalu lemah?

Dianggarkan 1,476,233,470 Muslim di atas muka bumi Allah ini. Satu bilion di Asia, 400 juta di Afrika, 44 juta di Eropah dan enam juta di Amerika. Setiap lima insan manusia ialah Muslim. Setiap seorang Hindu ada dua orang Islam, setiap seorang Buddha ada dua orang Islam dan setiap seorang Yahudi ada beratus orang Islam. Mengapa orang Islam terlalu lemah?

Ini jawapannya: Terdapat 57 negara anggota OIC dan jika dicampur semua cuma ada kira-kira 500 buah universiti; atau sebuah universiti untuk setiap tiga juta orang Islam.

AS mempunyai 5,758 universiti dan India ada 8,407. Pada 2004, Shanghai Jiao Tong Universiti membuat kajian 'Kedudukan Akademik Universiti-universiti Dunia' - dan menakjubkan - tiada satu pun universiti-negara Islam yang berada di puncak 500.

Data yang dikumpul dari UNDP, tahap celik huruf di negara maju ialah hampir 90 peratus dan 15 negara itu mempunyai 100 peratus celik huruf. Negara majoriti penduduk Islam, purata kadar celik huruf ialah sekitar 40 peratus dan tiada negara yang mempunyai 100 peratus semuanya celik huruf.

Sekitar 98 peratus penduduk di negara maju menamatkan sekurang-kurang sekolah rendah, sementara hanya 50 peratus di negara majoriti Islam. Sekitar 40 peratus penduduk di negara maju memasuki universiti, sementara hanya 2 peratus di negara majoriti Islam.

Negara-negara majoriti Islam mempunyai 230 ahli sains bagi setiap (per) sejuta penduduk. Di AS 4,000 per sejuta, Jepun 5,000 per sejuta. Di seluruh negara Arab, penyelidik sepenuh masa ialah 35,000 dan hanya 50 juruteknik per sejuta (berbanding di negara maju 1,000 juruteknik per sejuta).

Negara Islam membelanjakan 0.2 peratus daripada KDNK untuk penyelidikan dan pembangunan (R&D) sebaliknya, di negara maju membelanjakan 5 peratus daripada KDNKnya.

Kesimpulan: Dunia Islam kurang keupayaan untuk menghasilkan ilmu pengetahuan.

Akhbar harian yang dibaca oleh setiap 1,000 orang dan jumlah judul buku yang dibaca oleh setiap sejuta orang adalah dua angka tunjuk bagi menentukan sama ada ilmu pengetahuan disalurkan ke dalam masyarakat.

Di Pakistan, hanya ada 23 akhbar harian per 1,000 rakyat Pakistan sementara nisbah di Singapura ialah 360. Di UK, jumlah judul buku per juta orang ialah 2,000 sementara di Mesir ialah 20.

Kesimpulan: Dunia Islam gagal menyalurkan ilmu pengetahuan.

Yang menariknya, jumlah terkumpul KDNK tahunan 57 buah negara ahli OIC ialah di bawah AS$2 trilion. Amerika sahaja, menghasilkan barangan dan perkhidmatan bernilai AS$12 trilion, China AS$8 trilion, Jepun AS$3.8 trilion dan Jerman AS$2.4 trilion.

Pengeluar minyak yang kaya, Arab Saudi, UAE, Kuwait, Qatar secara rangkuman menghasilkan barangan dan perkhidmatan (rata-rata minyak) bernilai AS$500 bilion; Sepanyol sahaja menghasilkan barangan dan perkhidmatan bernilai lebih AS$1 trilion, Poland AS$489 bilion dan Thailand AS$545 bilion.

Jadi, mengapa orang Islam tidak berkuasa dan orang Yahudi paling berkuasa?

Jawapannya ialah: Kurangnya ilmu. Kurangnya pendidikan dan kurangnya pelajaran.

so..it means we can do something...

what is nature will alweys be a nature

phewww after a week working non stop morning shift..today is my offday huahuahua bantai tido la..akhirnye huhuuh nothing much to say..just yesterday i chat with my frenz n suddenly terpikir..about fitrah..

we..human interact with nature no matter how hard u try to avoid or prevent it..n u cant pretend that ure not instead it is yes..example..biasenye perempuan mmg ske bende2 cantik nih n they alweys be flattered if kalo ade org puji..n actually we love it huhu

we also want to love n to be loved by someone..

n talking about seks education..there is a lot of things government n parents try to do..to ensure budak2 kecik2 nih tak terpengaruh..takleh tgk tv..n mcm2la..but lumrah dunie..human will alweys interact with nature..whether in a gewd way or not..dat is why we have feelings..feel to cry..to laugh..to realize..feel symphaty..feel guilty and any sort of feelings..

that makes me think about israel n gaza.. be frank i dunno that much about this war n that makes me feel guilty..while im so comfortable here with tiny probs..they face with such an experince that no one ever think n dream bout it..power n politics..urghh what a defection to world..but my question is...what kind of nature this shit israel interact with?

hmmm..there is one day..my boss have a debate with one english..ofcourse about this war n about all the war before..my boss so emotional if it comes about war n his country..kiteorg ug lain jd saksi je tgk..but ade satu soklan this english nih tnyr wat aku rase nak marah..he said..'if u tink that US N n our country are wrong cz create a war n makes people suffer without feel symphaty..so why u come to our country n have business here n live here peacefully..why dont u stay in ur country n fighting n helps ur people there?

urghh come on mannnnn..the way u said it like that things so easy..i know some of us can only feel symphaty n feel guilty without trying to do anything just that we can recite doa n contribute some money..but it is gewd we still have that feeling compare to urself! it is not about who they are...just because of u are not in our 'group' so that u just keep watching n make a statement that hurt people..you still a human..n nature rules says we interact with symphaty n peace..wut if ure in their shoes? what would u do man?
n my boss says..what is wrong if we live in ur country peacefully..we have that right n we pay tax here n we never create problem here..n you..urself can stil live here because of our money..so dont talk to much...
hurmm...i knew...ade betul jugak ngn statement org putih nih sikit bnyak..dear God please forgive me for all my wrongdoing n berilah kesejahteraan kepada org muslim yg teraniaya...