promise...

rules are made for human to break it..cz without human there is no rules..
promise are made as guarantee for things which is uncertain..
how far we can rely on that promise..only god knows..

we can stil alive on this earth because we have faith of trust n promise..
n willingly bear the risk of any outcome of broken promise..
n all about ur past will kept chasing you no matter how fast n how far u run..
n future...will keep stay waiting...

i wish..
i wish..
i wish..

the promise that u have to bear a very high risk..

enough...

enough..
exam is around da corner..
enough..
with everything..
enough..
enough..enough...enough..

its easy to say anything..
its easy to make conclusion

to build up trust..it takes ages..
but to loss it...
only one second..
but make it sure..its worth..
sometymes..it might be right..
n sometymes might be wrong..


im not saying that im rite..or wrong either..
after all this things happens..
i choose to remain silent..

i dunno bout tomorrow..
or next after..
i just hoping..
it would better than today...

im sorry..
let time give an answer...

enough....

damn~

hmm mlysia~ london...
damn...
mama..i miss u sooo much...
ajat...ur sis will alweys be by ur side..n im proud of u dear...


i choose to silent..
let it be whatever it wanna be

im thankful..
cz im not alone..
dear Allah..pls forgive me
pls bring n guide me to the right path..


being away..
n silent..
is the hardest thing..
will kept it safely in my heart..
someday..
might be useful..
someday..
will let it out..
someday..
will give me answer...
someday..
..........


will wait till someday arise..
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today..
i learn..
today..
i fell down..
today..
struggling to survive..
today..try to understand..


today...
wishing for a better day than today...
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tommorow..
is full with suprise..
tommorow..
new hope n faith..
tommorow...

never know bout tommorow...
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busy~

its been almost a couple of month i didnt update my blog..babe...i really dunt have tyme even for my self..im too busy ryte now working n study..even its so tiring..im still enjoying it cz not need to worry bout my pocket money..but for the past 2 month..there is a lot lot lot lot of things happens..iza going back to malaysia..n left me alone here wuwuwuwuwwu really miss her damn much!!!!!! she is such an understanding frenz n she alweys on my side no matter whether im wrong or not...thank u iza..i love you~
im not working in pizza restaurant anymore..now im working at huhu ice cream shop~ whahahaha siyesly its utterly tempted with all sort of ice cream,lasagna,milkshakes yummy~ n waffle huahuahua but after 3 weeks working there...my stomach cant accept it anymore...muak~ huhu

hurm there is a lot of things need to be update..but still dunt have enough tyme for it..hope will update it soon...muuuahx~

if you...

if you feel sleepy..go to bed
if you hungry..look something in ur kitchen for food
if you bored..have something to do..play game perhaps
if you get sick..eat tablets
if you dont have money..go to work

but..what if...

if you sad..
if you happy..
if you feel down..
if u miss someone..
if u feel love..
if u feel upset..
if u feel giving up..
if you feel lonely..

huhu question will always comes with answer
but not all question have the exact solution..
ure the one who raise up that question
so u will be the one who find the solutions..
after all the things happens
n there still no way to solve ur question..
only 1 answer will be the best solution..
God=)

bye bye

hmm dis week is a very2 long n busy...hmm busy of entertaining frenz who will going back to malaysia..
busy of rememories back all memories that we have been together..
busy to pretend that everything was ok...
n busy to think..how can i live here in london without them as they are as part of my family...
my life would be empty without them...thank u cz being a very2 gewd frenz to me...

hmm..a year has gone..n it leave me with a lot of memories..
n it is very2 difficult for me to let them go..but life must go on..
they leave me with trillion gewd deeds that they have done to me...
only i can do is..by praying to God..for His blessing..to kak sally,abg mat n arip..

i never thought that they will be as part of my journey life here in london...n i never thought that we can be so close like now..n it such a previlage for me cz God has grant me this opportunity of knowing them...it such a beautiful memories..
they alweys by my side when i was so down..n they alweys laugh with me when i was so happy...hmm they are everythings..

infact..arep alweys give me advice when i really need it n he teach me how to play pool n now i cant wait to play pool again hehehe..kak sally n abg mat cook for me when i feel like i want to eat any malaysian foods..apam balik..mee bandung..kuih raye...cheese cake..n sometymes habiskan mase tgk tv till late nyte..cz i dunt have tv in my house n lg malang cz watching tv is part of my hobbies..i really love tv!

hmm im so sorry cz i cant give or do something in return..
im so sorry if i have done something that hurting u..
n thank u so so so much cz being such a gewd frenz to me..

bye bye...
hope they will have a great live there in mlysia..

budget....

hmm let me think first..how much do i have now in my pocket..
100 pound
with my boss..
137.50
in my account..
60
all together...297.50
okey..done..
things need to pay..
1. 1 week house rental.........................................................40
2. 2 weeks deposit................................................................90 since im about to move out
3. 2 weeks house rental for new house..............................90
total:220

hmm237.50-220=17.50..utk hidup n 60 pound simpan..emergency case

target:
600 school fees
200+50+140+400=790
total:1390 pound

hmmm cmne ek nk buat..to earn 1400 in a month times?

answers=selain keje...i hav no idea....