malaysia oh malaysia

its been a week im at malaysia..huhu no pogress..just hang out with all my dearest friends and enjoying all the malaysian authentic foods!! yummy after almost 2 years im away from malaysia atmosphere..pasar malam..lepak2..
now..my official job is suri rumah sepenuh mase huhu doing same chores everyday..wake up in the morning..take care or my dad..sapu sampah..cooking..lipat baju..and whatsoever...really bored..everyone are busy ryte now..all my frenz and cousin busy preparing for their upcoming exam and me...i just wasting my tyme without doing nothing..not ready to start working..neither study.hoho..
hmm i just miss my old life in london..busy with everything without realising that clock ticking very fast..i knew its not that easy to work and study at the same tyme..but now.. that is what i missed so much..huhu
that life is not that hard..but dunno why..when im at malaysia now..i really feel sorry to 'them' who work in london so hard day nite ..but actually the environment is totally different comparing malaysia and london... you will think that working from 11.00am - 12.00 pm is very2 difficult and tiring if u are in malaysia..but different things happens if ure in london..
so much things are different..dunno how to describe..but it is different! hehe maybe in london u have to learn how to survive on your own..comparing live in ur own country..whatever it is..i learn a gewd lesson..hope im not just wasting it...

hmmm...continue later..short of idea...gewdnite malaysia n gewdnite london!!

happy ending 3

16 sept...huyooo it is 16 already..tyme flies very fast...today the rain pouring heavily from morning till nyte i am soooo wet.. i have to walk to tuk din's restaurant for working without an umbrella =( too bad..luckily didnt cought a fever...within a weeks to go before raye!!! i hav 3 baju raye to choose for raya celebration hehe one is from my mum..one from my aunt and the last one..is my baju kurung that i wore on my convocation day..Alhamdulillah..a month before im going back to malaysia my rezeki sangat murah!!
1- dapat baju raye
2- i bought a laptop on a very2 affordable price!! very!!!!!
which is never cross in my plan or even my mind to buy a laptop before going back to malaysia..
3- i get my electronic dictionary
4- i passed all my papers on june exams!!!!

actualy banyak lg..but i just cant trigger it from my memories..Alhamdulillah!!! Allah sangat adil..
hmm it will always balance..depending how u interperate the meaning of balance.for me..the best to describe is by malaysian qoutes..hidup umpama roda..skjap kat atas skjap kat bawah.. u win some u lose some..

sometymes i just wish that i can stay in london a bit longer..im so happy with my life now..n feel very hard for me to leave it..with gewd job environment..gewd circle of frenz..gewd place of living n even gewd money..and also gewd acompany..but then i realise..maybe without deciding to leave london i wont get all those opportunity..u will never knows..n for me..i am really2 thankful with whole things that happens to me..thank u God.. and i know..when i arrive at malaysia..different adventure is waiting for me..i have to prepare myself..never look back...

hmm hopes everything will go fine..
selamat hari raye semue!!!

happy ending 2

5 sept : huhu yes!!! i just received my electronic dictionary that i bought from ebay..bought the second hand one but still in a gewd condition like new one! huhu so excited to open the package!!! unfortunately it doesnt working when i turn it on.i was so frustrated n thought that the seller was trying to cheat on me..urghh feel like just wasting 33 pound on nothing..try to change with new battery with hopes that its working...naaaaa still the same..then kamal try to check it..actually there is one button at the bottom that i forgot to switch it on hehe and kamal just wanna play around with me n said it stilll not working... but i already discover it when i heard bipbip sounds huhu yessssssssssss!!!! now i got my own gadget that cost me only 33 pound! normal price is 60 above and at malaysia new price it cost like 700 ringgit huhu..not sure the exact price..but worth the buy huhu im the one who is very hard to spend so much money on something kind like expensive (exclude cloth or shoes or handbag that i tink as an excuse for every women to feel less guilty huhu coz its neccessary ryte? )huhu..i dunt have any kind of gadget except for camera that already broken if it consider as gadget huhu..i love gadget but cant afford to buy it..huhu since im going back to malaysia .. i just feel like i have to buy something as a treat for myself..n for me this dictionary is more than satisfied! now im sooooo into it.. lets me share with you some words that ive already learnt huhu
agony-physical n mental suffering
wave of nausea-disgusting
solace-comfort
whahaha sorry kind like childish..dunno till when this excitement will stay hahah maybe a week..or a month.. no laaaaaa
oh yeah..in the morning...me,kak nor and kamal went to portobello market!!! wahahahaha so rambang mate with everything they sell it there..there is a lot of antique stuff and something that u cant easily find in normal market on a very affordable price with gewd quality perhaps..if only i have a lot of money.. i will buy all those thing to give as a present to my relatives without trying to select the best one..just pick n pay huhu dats why maybe i dunt have a lot of money ryte? =)
i walked from north to south and east to west to select the best stuff that i can give as souvenir to them..so headache..thank u to kak nur n kamal cz helping me...huhu sooo sorry coz make both of u waiting so long and have to keep watching me in case im lost which is so many tymes kak nur have to ring me to ask where is the exact location am i....huu thank u for the day... really enjoy it with company by both of them... now..i tink i am nearly finish buying souvenir..
ok..tink dats all for today..oh yes...hehe just wanna update my tips for today...i got 7.60 pound today!!keep smilling esma! huhu Alhamdulillah..like tuk din always advice us..tak kire sikit ker bnyak huhu
now i can sleep with smiling..gewdnyte everybody...sweetdreams=)

happy ending~

hmm i was trying to write a whole story of my life in uk..but still dont have idea..
the more idea..tbe best outcome..so will wait till idea comes.. huhu
mon 31 august - huhuhuh merdeka! tanggal 31 bulan 8...57..huhu im proud to be malaysian.. just now..i saw a picture of KLCC when it still under construction huhu wut an amazing! nowdays we can proud with wut 'they' have left to us..merdekaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!! yeay2..
now im busy with working..dunt have enough time to go anywhere..less than a month left for me before im going back to malaysia..sad..happy??? dunno wut i feel right now..but in the middle of nite..i just feel like i wanna write something..hmm up to now..during this ramadhan my shift start from 6pm to 12 am including closing n terawikh ramai2..so i got a lot lot of free time actually including time dat i can save on travel since i moved in to mara hostel that takes me only 10 minutes walking to tuk din's restaurant instead of an hour from barking...but i just waste it with tidoooooooo n watching dr house!!!! huhu no no way..start from tommorow..i will try my best to wake up early n go somewhere..hurmmm i should appreciate my life here in uk isnt it? while i have only 28 days left...
hmmm wut i wanna do with this 28 days?? lets check out tomorrow coz i wanna continue my dr house season 5 huhu

4 sept- aiyooo..this week is freaking cold...no idea why is it..still in summer mode...yuhooo i hav bought all the souvenirs for my beloved related family..cant wait to see their respond when they receive this gift..huhu soooo excited...
today i finish my shift bit late..huh so tired...n soo busy..but my tips today not big enough to offset the tiredness huhu ussually i can get like 6 pound per day average after total devide by 7..but today only get 3.90 huh...still hehe Alhamdulillah..its better than never..
hmm..dunno... but even now is 4th sept... still not goin anywhere or enjoying my last few days in london with something diff...i know i should do something better..hmm ntah la...maybe i had enough..or maybe just take it for granted till its gone.. not so much things happens that i can share the story with alll of u guys...hopes tommorow will be better than today..oh yes..before i forget...i will bring with me one of my workmate when im goin back to malaysia!!!hopes it consider as my contribution to malaysia huhu tahun melawat malaysia!!should make a list of itenary..where to go n what to do.so excited!! !! yuhuu happy fasting!!

after all this while....

wawawawawwa after all this while...im waiting so long to go back to malaysia...finally i decide to go back to malaysia for gewd!!!! yuhuuuuu
but all my frenz n family worried bout that swineflu or h1n1 something ...
in london there is plenty cases of people died because of swineflu but still under control..dunno why
but because of malaysia got so many people died because of this swineflu..now i become worried sighed* more less reduce my excitement of coming back to malaysia~
but thinking about family...frenz...food..urgh utterly temptation...cant stop me for countdown till the day arrive...but still..i will leave a lot of things on this british land..my happiness,my love...and all my ups and downs...thank you london coz become part of my teacher..
wutever it is...when i arrive at malaysia...all the secret in london will be revealed....

malaysia..please welcoming me back with all your pleasure!!!!!

promise...

rules are made for human to break it..cz without human there is no rules..
promise are made as guarantee for things which is uncertain..
how far we can rely on that promise..only god knows..

we can stil alive on this earth because we have faith of trust n promise..
n willingly bear the risk of any outcome of broken promise..
n all about ur past will kept chasing you no matter how fast n how far u run..
n future...will keep stay waiting...

i wish..
i wish..
i wish..

the promise that u have to bear a very high risk..

enough...

enough..
exam is around da corner..
enough..
with everything..
enough..
enough..enough...enough..

its easy to say anything..
its easy to make conclusion

to build up trust..it takes ages..
but to loss it...
only one second..
but make it sure..its worth..
sometymes..it might be right..
n sometymes might be wrong..


im not saying that im rite..or wrong either..
after all this things happens..
i choose to remain silent..

i dunno bout tomorrow..
or next after..
i just hoping..
it would better than today...

im sorry..
let time give an answer...

enough....